cant sleep.

i can never sleep at night, im always up thinking of everything. so many things run through my mind at night. the past, the present and the future. all my regrets flood my head, and my memories take over my thoughts. i than began to think of the present and how everything that i've done affects whats going on now. my mind than goes to the future and all the possbilities that it can have, the good and the bad. i try hard not to think, to just lay down close my eyes and sleep. for some reason i just cannot shut my mind off.

than again, when sleeping with someone i do fall asleep fast. i think its distraction, i need to find a distraction when im alone. or, just start sleeping with my boy everynight. which i love doing so much, but thats besides the point. i need to find a way to get to sleep faster, that way i don't sleep my whole day away. and so i can stop thinking of everything, stop worrying and stressing out over unchangable things and things that i have no control over. maybe one day..