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happy september baby

pills

ever since freshman year ive been doing pills. i used to do them often, at least three or four times a week for months. it started affecting my school work, and my home life, my relationships everything. so i started to stop, slow down and cut back on everything i was doing. i did good for the most part i wouldn't do them for a while and it would be an every now and than kinda thing. recently i have started doing them again, well.. its been like 5 or 6 months that ive been doing them, at least once a week. my boyfriend broke his collarbone so he had to get surgery we ended up doing all of his oxy codones, his vikes and perks. now that he has none we both are craving them. he never really did them until now, i feel horrible getting him into pills. it may be his decision but i showed up the fun and feelings that you get when on them. i want one. i would kill for an adderall. anything at that, i wouldnt mind taking whatever offered to me. i know im not addicted, or am i? i think about them a lot. the feelings they give me. i just feel so incredible on them, like i can do anything accomplish whatever it is i need. every bad thought i have goes away and i feel like i can feel everything so much more than i would sober. every thought and emotion travles through my body and i feel i all the way from my the ends of my hair to my head, all the way down my arms to my finger tips, it shoots through my legs down to the tip of my toes. i love it. i want one, or two and maybe even three.